Desirey

The road leading to happiness. What do you think it looks like? Full of flowers, birds singing, rainbows, clouds, sweet scent,... ? Then, you will never find happiness if you think this. Happiness is the darkest road to take. It is also the longest one. Happiness is a road which leads to paradise ; so the road won't be it. The colors of happiness are dark, deep, creepy, frightening. But it's this way for one reason : to prove you're strong enough to fight until the end. Happiness says "when you want to give up, it's because I'm just here a step further". Before getting to happiness, you have to know what it's not. So then, you can enjoy it

Mother gave me love. Father gave me respect. Brother gave me attention to care. Life gave me chances to get further. Death gave me a chance to live. Time gave me wisdom. Past gave me memories to remember. God gave me a soul. Human being gave me a heart. Work gave me money. Discovering gave me a passion. And you, you gave me true love... So here it is, I give you all I have. I give it all to you. I don't have much, but it's all I can give to you. So just promise me you'll give me a chance to be a part of your future. So we'll call it our future. All my love, I give it all to you... Since you're the only one my heart cries out for.

Did you ever... Feel like everything is falling apart? Feel like you're loosing everything? Feel like you're the ghost of who you were? Feel like you don't mean anything anymore? Did you ever... Try to starve until you become insvisible? Try to over eat until you become visible? Try to cut your veins until you don't feel anything? Try to burn your skin until you feel something? Did you ever... Love the body you were born with? Love another body more than yours? Love someone else at the point of getting hurt? Love something at the point of thinking you'll die without it? Did anyone ever... Tell you how your eyes are so beautiful? Tell you h

Before you...  I was a mess. A lonely heart. A broken soul. Worthless and useless were engraved on my forehead. I cut my skin to find Death before it finds me. I over took pills. I starved to see if I could live longer than a normal person. I've been lied to almost at every single second. I hated myself. I felt like there was something missing in me. Like if I was a puzzle and there was that piece missing as in every puzzle. I was searching everywhere to find myself, to find a fate to my life, to find who I am, who I could be. People punched me, pushed me, threw me, gave me bruisles everywhere, tried to destroy me and it almost worked. I'm s

There's some memories flying here and there inside my head In each of them, I end up to somewhere else, dead Out of a sudden, I met the most wonderful fallen angel And I knew you were my very own guardian angel But then, things went worse because of me, only me I broke you so many times and now, you feel empty I heard what other people say "you'll find better" I guess they were right about the fact I hurt I feel your tears, I feel the way you wish to be dead But since when are you feeling like this mess? I am the only one to blame in all this circle of pain Please God, let me arrive now at the end Let me arrive at the end of me, the mon