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''Yes... I am evil'', this is what I replied to everyone.
I guess this is true...

This is true because I don't feel anything.
I used to feel things, but I don't remeber how to feel those things again.
It's like if I was dead and alive at the same time... I mean, dead inside while I still breath.

This is true because my heart is now in a coffin which is won't ever be broken.
My hard is hard as stone and as cold as ice.

This is true because I fake smiles everyday and you believe them.
I tell lies so you won't get too much closer and you believe them.
I pretend things you always believe.
I am better than the devil in this game of lies.

This is true because I cut my skin.
I stop and then I start again as if it was the deepest drug ever.
I guess it is, but you'll have to see my scars to understand.
One thing to make you guess, I should be dead by now, but I still breath.

This is true because I am dead, but I still human and alive.
Yes, I breath, I speak, I think, I move as I always did.
Yes, I don't eat no more, I don't sleep anymore, I don't feel a thing.
I am a monster.
I am a fallen angel.
I was broken, but I am a walking dead...
I got repaired by myself so no one will break me.
I was human, I am not no more.
No... I am evil.
I am not ashamed of looking this way. No... Because it makes you scared.
By your fear, you feed me.
By your tears, you make me smile.
When you bleed, I am inside you.
But everywhere else, I look human.

This is true because I am here while I am the devil inside your head.
I made a mess inside me so I do with you.

Yes... I am evil.
Do you see? Or did I make you blind?
Can you scream and hear it? or did I make you dumb and deaf?
Can you feel something? or did I make you as me?

Now understand, yes... I am evil.
I feel this way, but don't belive this is exactly me because it's not.
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thenotsolonelyone14 Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013
(I know this was written a while ago and I don't know if you still feel this way...) As much as you might believe you are, I don't think you're anywhere near evil. Yes, I see that you go through a lot, but no,no you're not evil...you helped me on those days when I really needed someone to talk to. And it meant a lot to me.. That's not something an evil person would do. That's something a caring and thoughtful person like you would say. So thanks for just being you! some day your scars are going to help so many people, this is just your story. Hold on to it.
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Desirey Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2013  Professional Artist
aww thank you sweetheart :')

But the feeling of being evil... it's more like everyone is telling you that you are a bad person, a manipulator, a liar, ... Everyone I met (even my own family) thinks I am. Well... They are free to think whatever they want, but I know I am free to be whatever I want

I guess you are right... I care about people... I do care about you...

You know... for you too, one day, your scars will speak to people and I think you will be able to save lives :) :hug:

Never give in
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thenotsolonelyone14 Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013
your welcome, mommy. :huggle: (I just felt like calling you that.) lol...and yes, I'll try really hard not to.
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Desirey Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013  Professional Artist
Yay! I'm your mommy! :D :meow:
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thenotsolonelyone14 Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013
lol yay I'm so happy i've finally found someone!! :) and she's awesome too!!!
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SamApeace Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Wow
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Desirey Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2013  Professional Artist
Thank you ^^
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KurosPassions Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
the anwser will come to in time
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Desirey Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2013  Professional Artist
Yeah, I hope =p
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